My love for astrology began in my teens when I came across a very popular book that my aunt had in her library called, The Book of Birthday's. I found a lot of what I read about the characteristics of people born on my birthday to be very accurate so from there I was convinced that astrology was real. Reading about the personality traits of myself, friends, and lovers based on their birthdays became a habit. I was hooked. I had one or two friends who knew a little more than me on this topic so we would chat about the differences between each sign every time we got together. I had no clue that just knowing ones sun sign was barley scratching the surface of what astrology was really about. But the little that I did know completely opened my mind and I was ready to learn more.
Fast forward to several years later when I was in my mid 20's, just graduated from college, and had no clue what my next move was going to be. The life I thought I would have after college just wasn't happening for me. I fell into a deep depression. I got to the point where I was so ready to give up on everything. But luckily, there's a fighter in me, and even when I want to quit the most, there's a part of me that just won't allow it. Once it hit me that being down on myself wasn't the way to go, I decided to revisit some of the self help books I had sitting around for a few years. The first one I picked up was, A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. This book literally changed my life and really started the spiritual journey that I'm still on today. I began making being in the present and watching my thoughts a daily practice. This journey also ignited a burning desire to learn more about myself in efforts to help me acquire what I was lacking the most, self love. I realized that my inner situation was creating all the madness that was going on around me. My inner world was not at all separate from your outer world. I wanted to get to the root of my problems. I wanted to make a change in my life.
I began seeing an intuitive life coach who was really good at her job...very gifted, but WAY too expensive for me. I was babysitting part-time and basically using all of what I earned to have sessions with her. This is how dedicated, and I guess desperate, I was to get my shit together. I was able to have at least four sessions with her in which we began the process of helping me understand why I am the way I am, and discussing my gifts and how to use them. This was what I needed. I felt amazing every time I left her office. But again, I just couldn't afford to see her as often as I wanted to. One of the things she told me, that I'll never forget, was spirit (my guides) was always talking to me, but I never listened. She said they gave me answers to my questions and always gave me ideas. She suggested that I invested in a little journal to carry in my handbag for when these ideas/messages came to me—I still do this till this day. Well, one day while thinking of ways to be able to get the money for another session, a friend called and we proceeded to have our usual conversations about love and life. In the midst of this conversation spirit told me to take a look at my natal chart. At the time I was a frequent visitor of cafe astrology , and even though I always went there to read about my natal chart, I never once thought that this information could be used to help me in anyway. It wasn't until spirit told me to take another look at my chart breakdown that I discovered all of what my intuitive life coach told me was right there in front of my face the entire time!
The same information she was getting from her guides to help me learn more about myself was literally in the palm of my hands and I had no clue. This also confirmed that my life coach was indeed good at her job and well worth the money—she was spot on with everything we had discussed. But now I had no reason to go to her because I could take matters into my own hands. I had the power to change my life for the better. We all have the power to do this but sometimes we tend to get too dependent on others to tell us what we already know—this realization comes with time. I then started studying, what I call, the blueprint of my life as I was on a mission to fall madly and deeply in love with myself. From there I dug deeper into astrology. What was once just a thing I enjoyed reading and talking about became an obsession that never went away and is something that I study to this day. There's so much to learn. I fall deeper in love with astrology every time I discover something new. After seeing how useful this tool was, I began reading everyone's natal chart. I wanted to help people learn more about themselves, and if possible, show them the way to self discovery, self love, and self healing. Now this is a part of my path, my mission, and part of the reason I started this blog—to share my experiences along with some of the tools/techniques I'm using to help me with my on going journey of self discovery, personal growth, and self love.
Your journey has to start somewhere. I'm hoping it'll be right here!